We are sometimes like Don Quixote fighting with the windmill because we are not always clear what we are fighting for; because we do not have good understanding of our inner dynamics.
The T-square of Chiron to the opposition of Mercury and the conjunct of Moon with Pluto represents a deep wound in our psyche. This have to trace back to our original wound as represented by Chiron in the 7th and Pluto at 4th house at the birth of the country: a profound lack or loss of self-worth as colonies of the British Empire, an angry about being controlled and deserted by the power center due to a suppressed and exploited relationship with the British King (taxation without representation, our needs are not being considered or met). Having been rejected and unresponsive from the British Empire forced us to rely upon ourselves to provide security and assurance by rebelling and liberating ourselves from British control (south node in Aquarius). This initial evolution impulse eventually led us to the creation (North node in Leo) of a new form of governmental, a new social structure based on our outlook of the world – the intention of Sun and the inspiration of the group of planets on top of chart.
This memory that associated with the past are ignited whenever we experience similar situations. This emotional displacement makes us become very sensitive to any obnoxious behavior of environment. The exterior environment may not have the intention to offend us, nonetheless, when we interpret their behavior as such, we are instantly provoked to those emotional reactions. We thus can unconsciously draw to us opponents whose psychological make up is similar to that of British Empire in colonial time. We tend to have a compulsively need to run the other down to elevate ourselves because we want to shield ourselves from fear of vulnerability.
In Pluto book Jeff Green wrote: “This conditional emotional reaction leading to the need to dominate and control is a backhanded way of trying to fulfill their security and dependency needs. By being in a position of dominance and control they maintain their relationships and fulfill the security issue. Yet their deepest emotion needs will go unresolved in this kind of conditional reaction because the people that they draw to them will be emotionally unequipped to help them. The point to consider is this: emotional denial does not equal emotional security, nor resolution of the evolutionary and karmic necessities.” “ These moods/feelings/emotions originate from unconscious depths is just like the seething lava beneath a volcano.”
This dynamic can be just as confusing to us as it is to those we are interacting with. The cycles repeat again and again until we learn to understand why this kind of situation exists, learn to emotionally mature through self-reliance. We need to learn to know and trust ourselves so that we can know and trust others.
Mercury represents the way we mentally organize the world around us; Moon is our emotional nature. Mercury opposites Moon and Pluto indicate how we perceive reality and communicate with the world tend to be in discord with how we feel on a gut level or in our deep core. Coming to term with our rational and emotion will help heal our wound; on the flip side, healing our wound will help us balancing logic and intelligence with instinct. How can that happen? We will discuss these in the next blog.